My name is Jessica. I'm a 29 year old housewife and mother of two, step mother to 4. I love to blog about simple things like cooking, books, homeschooling, and home life. As much as I envy those cute, happily ever after, life appears to have gone smoothly blogs, as much as I have tried to imitate, I just can't. That's not me. That's not the path I chose. I took a much harder, rockier one, and on occasion...it chose me. Although I am now just a simple housewife, the road has been anything BUT simple. I've also been:
Divorced twice, arrested, molested, sexually assaulted, verbally/emotionally/physically abused. Addicted to drugs, food, pornography, sex, self mutilation, and alcohol. I've had 3 miscarriages. I have attempted suicide and have been put on psychiatric watch for days at a time. I have exchanged sexual favors for money and/or drugs. I suffer from depression and am on medication to stable my imbalances. I've lost countless friends and family: some to death, other's by my own selfish deeds. So why am I here?
Because I have a God. I have a Savior that is bigger than all that has, (and still does!) tempt me. I have a friend, lover of my soul, Father, companion, guide, Teacher, Master that has wept with me while I was weeping, (and wept for me while I was too distracted to notice...or care). Who held onto me refusing to give up. A God who wanted to take me to the mountain top, but gave me free will, and let me fall into and wallow in the pit for awhile. So, though this blog I pray will for the most part be upbeat and restoring, I can't pretend I come from a place as simple as most of those, "mommy blogs" out there. My dark past is a cross I bear that I use to hide but now use as a testimony of where I've been, and by HIS grace alone will never return. I must daily be restored in HIM! God bless you, I'm praying that you be restored right along with me!