My name is Jessica. I'm a 29 year old housewife and mother of two, step mother to 4. I love to blog about simple things like cooking, books, homeschooling, and home life. As much as I envy those cute, happily ever after, life appears to have gone smoothly blogs, as much as I have tried to imitate, I just can't. That's not me. That's not the path I chose. I took a much harder, rockier one, and on occasion...it chose me. Although I am now just a simple housewife, the road has been anything BUT simple. I've also been:
Divorced twice, arrested, molested, sexually assaulted, verbally/emotionally/physically abused. Addicted to drugs, food, pornography, sex, self mutilation, and alcohol. I've had 3 miscarriages. I have attempted suicide and have been put on psychiatric watch for days at a time. I have exchanged sexual favors for money and/or drugs. I suffer from depression and am on medication to stable my imbalances. I've lost countless friends and family: some to death, other's by my own selfish deeds. So why am I here?
Because I have a God. I have a Savior that is bigger than all that has, (and still does!) tempt me. I have a friend, lover of my soul, Father, companion, guide, Teacher, Master that has wept with me while I was weeping, (and wept for me while I was too distracted to notice...or care). Who held onto me refusing to give up. A God who wanted to take me to the mountain top, but gave me free will, and let me fall into and wallow in the pit for awhile. So, though this blog I pray will for the most part be upbeat and restoring, I can't pretend I come from a place as simple as most of those, "mommy blogs" out there. My dark past is a cross I bear that I use to hide but now use as a testimony of where I've been, and by HIS grace alone will never return. I must daily be restored in HIM! God bless you, I'm praying that you be restored right along with me!
The Lord's unfailing LOVE and MERCY still continue. Fresh as the morning, as sure as the sunrise
girl you aren't a simple housewife. You are a wonderful one. I am so glad you are back. I really miss you and hope nothing but the best for you.
ReplyDeleteYou are such a brave woman! And you aren't alone. I think you will be a great inspiration to someone, maybe many someones. I am so happy to have heard from you again! Like Kris I wish you nothing but the best. You rock!
ReplyDeleteTiffany
God bless you woman :) You may have had a rocky start but God has plans for you yet don't give up. And remember even those who have beautiful blogs have struggles too. No life is perfect and you are a brave woman for putting an honest face to your blog. And with that I am sure many women who have or are suffering will benefit from it.
ReplyDeleteI am a single mother of 2 and am desperately trying to get off of pills. I want to be close to my kids again and most importantly I want to live for God and there is no way with these horrible pills! please keep blogging because it's people like you that give me the hope that I actually CAN have a good life <3
ReplyDeleteI love you all!!!!! Thank you again to Kris and Tiff for sticking through this nutty story of mine! Prais GOD I've come out on the other side!Thank you Northernmomma!!! look forward to reading more of your comments!
ReplyDeleteLaura...my e-mail address is in my profile. I would love to speak with you. I'm praying for you sister. You are doing th hardest job of all and I admire you SO much for it. Press on dear sister.
You know Tiffany and I will beside you through think and thin, you are like a sister to me. I love you like one. Hang in there girl.
ReplyDeleteYes what Kris said! :)
ReplyDeleteI am on day 3 of withdrawal, not fun by any means but I think this is a blessing because there is no way I want to go through this again.
ReplyDeleteThank you Jessica, you are very kind and I am determined to have an awesome life.
Laura...I know all about withdraw. Tomorrow I'm posting an experience that I had just yesterday with it. Please PLEASE e-mail me. I've had a chemical addiction and I may be able to help.
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